WOLF!

photo by Dennis

 It’s some kind of inertia or afterimage that’s responsible for one of the most vexing problems encountered during lifestyle re-modeling. After however many months or years of work to first identify your required behavior changes, and then make them happen, there’s still a disappointing period of time where you’re the only one who perceives that you‘ve done it.

Everyone attaches a likely intent to the behaviors or behavioral patterns of those they interact with. This perceived intent by others probably closely matches the actual intent of the “behaver”, most of the time. Assume we’re talking about average, socially adequate-functioning people on both sides of this perception line of sight. It took me years to accept the fact that perceived intent counts more than the actual. But it’s true. Perception is all that matters.

I’ve described before my original belief that instincts couldn’t be changed. And about how surprised I’ve been that my ingrained habits, including angry reaction or my skill to find and punch people’s buttons, could be modified. And they have been drastically modified. It was required to lower the stress and stabilize blood sugar. And those around me see the results. But old, tried and true patterns of action-reaction and perceived motivation are hard to discard. The same comment that previously was a snide, passive-aggressive swipe is now earnest. But I’m the boy who cried wolf. I can’t expect people to know that my current health and peace of mind is only possible because all the old unkind intent is gone. Of course, absolutes have to be avoided. I say gone. More accurate would be extremely dampened. In my own mind, I don’t rise to anger often, to any great degree, or without immediately recognizing it. But any deviation from the golden path is an unfortunate reinforcement of the false wolf cry precedent. Still, most of the time now, it’s simply the case that I say something to be honestly helpful, forgetting that the exact same phrase, in the same situation, was once a reason to bristle.





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Refusing The Needle: A Diabetic’s Natural Journey To Kick-Ass Health by Russell Stamets
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